Dec 29

Pinterest.

Exactly. 

Well cest la vie. 

I love eating, like food is what makes life interesting. Seriously. 

"If you love your food, don't complain about your weight."

I tell myself that every time I overeat. I be like reciting the words while holding my belly and that's how you love yourself. *winks*

There are some people who don't grow much, they don't grow tall nor grow fat. No matter how much they eat, they're just dead skinny. 

Oh how I wish. 

Well I believe they have their disadvantages too. 

I desperately need to cure my smartphone withdrawal. Yesterday night I went to bed and I was like "What am I gonna do?" because I, and probably 80% of the planet's population stares at a screen before falling asleep. It's a modern lullaby and my lullaby just crashed so I was just laying there awkwardly until I drifted off to sleep. 

I guess this is how modern society lives and we just can't help but to live with it. I wonder what I did back when I didn't have a phone. The funny thing is that I remember my method of falling asleep was closing my eyes and repeating the word "sleep" in my head, similar to counting sheep but 

counts sheep -> gets number mixed up -> stress -> awake again

so repeating the word "sleep" was much simpler and it helps. 

Anyway, school is postponed for another week *shouts "yes" inside* because of flood. My area isn't flooding, yet. I hope it won't because it would be super depressing. 

Let's have a beautiful week ahead,

C.

Dec 28

"The world breaks everyone, and afterwards, some are strong at the broken places."

I just love this quote.

So apparently my phone crashed, which is oddly bittersweet because it's my first time using a phone till it's unusable however I didn't backup anything so hopefully *fingers crossed* all my media files are still retrievable. 

One week left till school starts. You know what's frustrating on the first day? Seatings. Nice seat, wrong partner: great, you're done for the year. Bad seat, nice partner: great, you're still done for the year.

This thought suddenly came to me, have you ever counted the empty promises you made? I used to make a lot during my previous relationship because we were fighting a lot so at that time, promises were made just to calm each other and because they were all empty promises, we fought a lot about them too. It wasn't a healthy relationship really, to be honest, there wasn't even any conversation going on. 

...Crazy immature kids.

"We were too young to notice and too dumb to care, love was a story that couldn't compare."

Anyway, every experience is a lesson learnt. I believe I can do better than this. 

Now back to racking my mind trying to remember the songs on my playlist so that I can re-download if my internal memory is unreachable. Can't believe these things happen.

Love,C.

Christmas 2014

Merry Christmas!

Ahh once again. Time flies doesn't it?

Well, I didn't do anything special this year. We used to have dinner together and share presents but this year, Christmas was like any other day. Since a lot was happening, everyone didn't really had the mood to celebrate, or at least I felt that way.

But mom got back from granny's place and brought back some gifts from my aunt. Thanks so much xoxo.

Love the cute little doggie hand cream.

I got one more week till the next school year. I don't really feel like going to school, I mean if it was 2013 or 2014 that's fine but 2015 is kind of stressful, especially the SPM (national examination equivalent to the O-Levels) is coming up. I am so not ready, I don't know if I would be able to manage my time and everything.

Well to be honest, we're all guilty for not studying hard enough this year but being guilty is so not in trend now so i'm just gonna throw myself onto 2015 and do the best I can. *shouts "fighting" inside"

Merry Christmas once again!

*ends with vain selfie*

White.

"So this is what the city looks like.",

Skyscrapers, paths pebbled,

Growing in her heart, a sense of pride,

Still what seems so close is always far away,

White walls, seven rows, "Ah," she thought, "we're all left astray."

Sometimes she sees, in her world of her own,

Lush green trees, sky high, rainbow sewn,

Beep beep "Oh, something's crying."

To the left, crying, it was not,

Instead a machine, stacks of papers piling,

"Was a mere dream again." she thought,

The city lights, still shining,

As if to heaven, they're calling,

Skyline, so tempting,

But look, the clock, is still ticking,

What a sight, the sun rising soon,

What a sight, outside the hospital room.

Sometimes It Happens - Lauren Barnholdt (Book Review)

Meet my new shelf member, Sometimes It Happens by Lauren Barnholdt. I can't believe I still can't find Eleanor and Park. I demand a restock immediately (inside bitchy voice)

So anyway side note: This is your typical love-it-or-hate-it teen romance novel which pretty much is like 90210 minus half the cast. No pretty quotes, no beautiful metaphors just straight from page 1 to 312 drama. 

Now let me break it down to you because there is no easier way to do this, what can I do, there's a lot going on in there. There is Hannah, lead character; Ava, Hannah's best friend; Noah, Ava's boyfriend and Hannah's crush; Sebastian, Hannah's ex-boyfriend whom she had a hard time getting over and Lacey, Hannah and Noah's mutual friend whom they worked with during summer break.

Swallow it all up and we'll get into the story, overall story. On the last day of junior year, Sebastian cheats on Hannah with another girl and broke Hannah's heart. She then becomes fragile and vulnerable until Ava, her best friend, takes up a part-time summer break job in Maine and tells her boyfriend, Noah, to keep check of Hannah. Noah does what he's told and somehow gets her a job at a diner and together with Lacey, who is already working there with Noah, they spend their summer break part-timing there. 

Since Hannah and Noah spends a lot of time together, they fall for each other without each other knowing anything and of course Ava is still in Maine. Plus, in between that, Sebastian keeps trying to get back with Hannah and she's just confused and everything. 

But on the day before senior year, something happens between Noah and Hannah, not gonna spoil it to you but I think you get the idea. Hannah is then terrified to go to school because she's afraid how the first day of senior year is going to go down. In the end, everything unfolds, friendships are broken but well, you never know. *winks*

Oh oh oh! I forgot to mention that the book is written one chapter in the past and one chapter in the present. So it goes like one chapter "First day of senior year." then one chapter "Summer break" and it goes on like this so everything unfolds bit by bit about what happened during summer and what will happen on the first day of senior year. 

I think it's quite clever to write this way because it keeps me glued to the book, it's never boring because there's always something that is going to unfold and you just have to read until the end to know all of it. 

That was the pros and now the cons. The ending was quite lacking that bit of quality. The puzzle pieces are just simply thrown together without much detail even though we already know what is and will happen. I personally think that the ending was not thorough enough, there are still holes here and there. 

In spite of that, the book overall was good, we all need some good old fashioned drama once in a while. I mean not to be in one but to read one is still as entertaining. 

Love, C.

Resolution.

When I look back, I see sparkles, shining gold.

Not money, not posh and luxury.

Instead, the "been there"s and "done that"s,

A happy heart, an abundance around me,

Inspired and inspiring others,

Know my limits,

And know that I have none,

An individual, a different scent,

All my fears in His hands,

Coming out alive.

God, grant me the serenity,

To accept the things that I cannot change,

The courage,

To change the things I can,

The wisdom,

To know the difference,

And the strength,

To find a way out of the maze.

The Beginning of Everything - Robyn Schneider (Book Review)

I totally forgot about this book, I actually read it quite awhile back and now I'm writing a review about this.

So anyway, I was at the bookshop looking for Eleanor and Park again and I still couldn't find any then I came across this. I actually saw this book in some of the lists on the net so I bought it. 

It's about a boy, Ezra Faulkner, top athlete, homecoming king, the it guy, you get the idea. All before he got involved in a car accident that shattered his knee, ruined is athlete career and took away his fame. Then he meets new girl Cassidy Thorpe and duh of course they fell in love, not at first sight but eventually. Cassidy is a mysterious girl, she was always a winner in debate competitions but she stopped debating after her brother passed away.

So apart from that, Ezra gets involve in a roller-coaster ride of the school's debate team, new friends and basically a whole new unexpected life.

But of course every book has a twist. Cassidy bailed out of him on the night before (or day before, I forgot, sorry) prom and then later dumped him for some stupid reasons. no spoiler *winks* 

So what happened? Spoiler alert. Cassidy's brother was actually the one who ramped into Ezra's car on the night of the accident and Cassidy didn't want to date Ezra because she thinks she would be sorry and hurt every time she sees Ezra. 

So eventually Ezra moves on, without much regret, accepting everything as it is and the end.

Moving on, I don't particularly love this book. It's all too typical except the ending there was tit bit of a twist. The set of characters have no life in it, they're all too plain. I would like if they have a little more personality, with each greatly different from another, be it supporting characters or lead. 

Cassidy particularly was too fast-paced. Her background and charms wasn't shown in detail, not enough juice to suck me in. 

Quotes:

"There's a big difference between deciding to leave and knowing where to go."

"She tasted like buried treasure and swing sets and coffee. She tasted the way fireworks felt, like something you could get close to but never really have just for yourself."

"You see? You're just figuring it out now, but I discovered a long time ago that the smarter you are, the more tempting it is to just let people imagine you. We move through each other's lives like ghosts, leaving behind haunting memories of people who never existed."

"History is filled with fictional people."

"I do know that I spent a long time existing, and now, I intend to live."

"She didn't add the elements that allowed me to proceed down a different path. She lent a spark, perhaps, or tendered the flame, but the arson was mine."

"Words could betray you if you chose the wrong ones, or mean less if you used too many."

#np: December's Playlist

It's the end of the year again. Personally, 2014 was quite bittersweet. I made a lot of good memories as well as bad ones but all are experiences right? Anyway, some might want some EDM or jolly Christmas music around this time but i've put together some beautiful and slow songs to end the year with.

Don't Judge Me - Chris Brown

This is my favourite of them all. I think it's really pretty and the lyrics are easy to relate to.

Honorary Mention: Taeyang's Cover

Nirvana - Sam Smith

Well we all got to admit that Sam Smith has something nobody else can replace. 

Nirvana was another awesome one. 

What Is Love - Kiesza 

To be honest I've never heard of Kiesza before until I came across this song. 

I like her powerful and soulful vocals. Something new :)

Same Age - Kim Bum Soo ft Lydia Paek

I absolutely love Lydia. She's blessed with heavenly vocals but she doesn't get much lines in this song.

Roses - James Arthur ft Emeli Sande

Love the lyrics. Their vocals go well together I think.

At Gwanghwamun - Kyuhyun

I didn't want to add this in actually because it's a new released hit song and topping charts so I think people might have already listened to this. But anyway, it's a "fall" song and I love it so here it is. ;)

Tee Shirt - Birdy

Just, Birdy.

Already Home - A Great Big World

If you love Say Something then you will love this! ;)

Love, C.

Things We've Forgotten.

I'm always looking for something to inspire me. My writing blog has been dead for as long as my creative mind was. Even so, quotes never fail to give me the goosebumps in spite that it may not be enough to create a story but it reminds me of things we're blinded of.

“A ship is safe in harbour, but that’s not what ships are for.”

  - William G.T. Shedd

"Reality is ugly, but life is beautiful"

- Epik High

“All that is gold does not glitter, not all those who wander are lost” 

- J.R.R Tolkien

“Build your own dreams, or someone else will hire you to build theirs.” 

 - Farrah Gray

"If the words you spoke appeared on your skin, would you still be beautiful?"

- Unknown

Do what you love, always. 

When November Ends.

November's gone in a flash. *sigh* 

What to do? What to do?