May 06

Went to a friend's place to complete some assignments. We hung by the poolside since he lives in a condo and it was the best. The only thing missing was some lemonade and a pair of swimwear.

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Funny conversation.

Me (to friend X): You are a serial rapist.

Friend A (to friend X): I dub you Koko Krunch rapist.

Me: Why Koko Krunch?

Friend A: Because he's a serial (cereal) rapist.

Me: what? Oh wait I get it. Cereal. HAHAHAHAHA

For a second there I didn't get it but then it kicked in and I was laughing like crazy for a good 5 minutes and I was on the verge of passing out.

I don't know, the joke itself is not that funny, it's the way he said it and how I didn't connected at first and overall the situation made it really really funny.

I love moments like these. I can just laugh like nobody's business. Uncontrollable laughter is amazing.

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Funny how things doesn't work out the way you want them to. And sometimes it's really annoying.

I actually finished a quarter of the assignment but my document file got lost. Then I had to redo on another laptop but surprisingly the charger failed to work. Okay fine, I can use my old laptop. Okay I then finished my work and saved and then bam, my pendrive stopped working. Okay okay chill, there's Dropbox. Dropbox will save the day. Then we finished the whole thing at my friends place and then I got to use my friend's pendrive. So after tuition which was about 9:15 I went to dad's office to print the thing and guess what? FILE FREAKING ERROR. Fire is boiling but okay, Dropbox I trust you. I attempted to print from the preview but the alignments are all messed up. WHATTTTTT.

WHAT IN THE WORLD IS THIS.

I was all desperate and stressed out because it is frigging 10 pm and deadline is practically tomorrow.

So thank Lord for having great great friends because Sam was too kind to lend me his printer and ink and paper and the energy of printing 25 pages of work. Thank you! XOXO

Now I can sleep in peace.

#unglam This is actually how people look like when they take lying down shots or is it just me?

May 02

It's Saturday and Saturday's are meant for doing things that bring the best out of life.
Went for a morning jog at the park. Weather was great until someone started open burning. In five minutes I'm all shrouded in smoke. It was just terrible.

I cannot understand people who are inconsiderate about the environment. Others out here are doing our part and we are so not doing it just to watch you burn away all our efforts.

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Brought in new babies to my collection.

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Settled for high tea buffet for brunch a.k.a the-only-meal-of-the-day because it was excessively filling. Yum.

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There is so much negativity around me now. I feel like a tree in the middle of a barren scorched land. It's just that time when the puzzle pieces don't meet.

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I hope it will be a lovely day tomorrow. Till then. ;)

May 01

It's May! May is absolutely not my month. Just a big no-no. I love December, and I will love this December even more! ;)

Oh May first, right, it's labour day and labour day means holiday! It's such a relaxed week cuz we had sports day then labour day and weekends then another public holiday on Monday which is great!

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I am always stressed about my studies. They haunt me every other second it is so hard to deal with. With assignments and the dates drawing closer, it is scary to be honest. I don't know what will happen, whether I can ace the big one or I might just turn out to be "neither here nor there". It is a void vision. Though I'm sure it will pass quickly since time flies.

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I am just generally very very stressed out, at everything. 2015 is so not my yearrrrr.

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Good stuffs? Not much, literally.

I am getting them feels lately hahahaha. I want to date someone, but not just anyone. Someone who meets standards and is sincere. I just have to wait, til the day we meet! Am I delusional?

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Other than that, guess what's on my reading list? Three Kingdoms. Yup, the Three Kingdoms you're thinking about.

I don't know. I change really often but right now I am into classics or history-like fiction. They are quite interesting to be honest.

I was into teen romance fiction before this. Such a typical teenage lass.

Music wise, I am totally into those you can make a contemporary / hip hop dance out of. It's a little sexy-jazz-hip-hop-pop with great beats. Like Usher, Ne-Yo, John Legend.

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My day?

Window-shopped around. Bought some mask packs for a quick fix because sports day was kind enough to give me tanned and dull skin after jumping and cheering all day under the scorching heat.  

That is all. Spend the rest with the fam.

Say You Love Me

#tb to some random day of the year. I know it totally does not match the title of this post. *laughs*

Cause' I don't wanna fall in love,

If you don't wanna try,

But all that I've been thinking of,

Is maybe that you're mine.

- Jessie Ware

My friend whom I haven't spoken to for a long time asked me,

"Do you have a boyfriend?"

"No." *laughs*

"Don't you feel like having one?"

"Uhmm...yeah...but it's not like I can get one when I want one." "I'm just waiting." *laughs*

For people like her, it's effortless. With a snap, voila.

But that is a different story.

In my opinion, people can change drastically when they take on different roles in your life.

Like they're like this when they're being a friend and they completely change when they become your partner.

Hence it is some sort of a risk to date and such. But it's a very beautiful risk, I must admit.

I think the keys to a good relationship is: the exact distance, toleration and patience.

I think of being in a relationship as living as one with two personalities. 

To nourish the good, to change the unhealthy, and to accept the unchangeable.

I hate possessive relationships, because I was in one and it was hell.

Distance and the right space will help a relationship breathe,

as long as hearts stick together.

I told her I am just waiting.

I am still really young.

I am not mature enough to imagine a realistic relationship yet.

It's either very fairy-tale-like or otherwise very void. 

One thing I know,

Is to strive for the best for myself,

then good things will come along.

Never live to find the one,

Live a good life and then love will be one of the things that come along.

I just finished Tiny Times 1 & 2.

Drama.

But it's so beautifully intense.

Boyfriends cheating, friends backstabbing.

我相信，这个世界上一定会有一个你爱的人。他会穿越这个世界汹涌的人群，一一地走过他们怀着一颗用力跳动的心脏，捧着满腔的热和沉甸甸的爱，走向你，抓紧你，他一定会找到你的，你要等。

也许我们最终都会成长为自己曾经最讨厌的摸样。但在此之前，面对黑暗无边，让我与你并肩。

There are so many beautiful quotes and sayings in the movie.

I cannot tahan.

Dem feelings~~

  

陈学冬

He is damn hot. 

 I heard Kris is rumoured to star in the 4th instalment of the series.

He better be.

Hahahahaha

May is here. I still can't get used to how fast time flies.

I think no one can ever get used to it.

Half of the year is almost gone.

I discussed with mom the other day.

About studying abroad.

I want to study in New Zealand.

That place is gorgeous and it gives a great vibe for students.

I don't know if I can go there.

Well we shall see.

It's been a long rant.

No regrets, 

Live, don't just exist, 

C.

Some April Rants

I just finished a movie called 有一个地方只有我们知道 (Somewhere Only We Know)

Kris is in it and HE IS HOT, PERIOD.

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I feel like everyone is so productive lately except me who really has nothing to do except studying. Got to step up my game, exams lining up like crazy. One year 7 months left and I am free from high school. I don't know what to pursue in the future, sigh, do well in exams and then we shall see.

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I am depressed. I've been trying to lose weight since the beginning of Nov 2014 and everything has gone well until one day I suddenly lost my motivation. It's like suddenly everything is so void and I keep running but I see no finish line. They say weight loss is an endless cycle, I guess that's true. 

I love my food and everyday is a constant battle between a freedom of choice and calorie restrictions and it's so depressing. "Love your body" I know. I know. But being skinny makes me happy and I like being happy. But eating makes me happy...temporarily. I can't think straight sometimes, and I splurge and ruin everything and I feel super guilty and depressed and it's a very ugly process. 

I know I have to be strong, mentally. I am trying and I know I can because I've been there and I know consistency is the key. Progress will lead to success. I will fight my inner demons and I will succeed in what I wish for. Well maybe what I wish for isn't going to make me happy in the end but it's worth the try. It's about challenging myself and knowing my limits and know that I have none. 

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I am strong, I am a warrior ninja. ;)

C.