#np: June's Playlist

It's the holiday season! Mid terms is finally over and no I did not forget about my monthly playlist just because I was all too happy indulging and pampering myself over the weekends. So let's kick June off with a playlist that'll hopefully last you for the month. Hope you'll like it. ;)

Earned It - The Weeknd

Fire N Gold - Bea Miller

Tip Toes - Jayme Dee

Paris- Magic Man

Long Time Coming - Saints of Valory

Battleships - Daughtry

Loser (Big Bang Cover) - Chad Future ft Preston Knight

Loved Chad's remix of Loser! We all need English versions sometimes hahaha.

But I also love love love Joayo X Malhada's version, still in Korean but it was just too good.

So that's about it! 

Enjoy! C.

The Cycle of Debts

Something my friend said: "Life is a cycle of debts."

This is quite a big revelation to me. Particularly because I'm in this sticky situation where the base of my family is constantly wavering.

We shouldn't think this way, he said to me. I know, I don't want to either.

But for the first time I teared up thinking about what he told me. It's really sad to have this mindset and here's my two cents about ties and debts.

We are all revolving around the concept of hierarchy and the continuation of generations. We think that we have to pay back what our parents gave us, the experiences we were given, friends and educators. This mindset has slowly turned life into a give-and-take game. We are not aware of this because it's so common, it's practiced by all thus it has become a norm of society.

Children study hard, because the parents want them to. Children make money, to repay the parents. We buy gifts for friends because they gave us gifts. We buy someone dinner, because they gave us great advice. And the list goes on.

You see, this is a cycle of you-give-me-and-i'll-give-you. Some do it willingly, some are forced to, some just go with the flow like it's the most natural thing to do. It is. It really is. Take note that sincerity doesn't matter in this cycle because with or without the heart, people would still do it anyway.

I'm not saying that we should be insincere, instead we should just do what is right and do it willingly. To come clean, what's right and what's wrong depends on what it brings. If it brings happiness then it's always right, because happiness is priceless. If it doesn't, well that's just plain unhealthy.

Since we cannot just abandon this practice, we should all look at the big picture and weigh the good and the bad. We should not think of this as debts and we can see this as dedication. A movement to improve ourselves and the people around us. What we are doing will help us strengthen the bonds of relationships and it will definitely bring everyone equal benefits that are essential in daily life.

Inspire others to inspire ourselves, stay happy, C.

The Moment I Felt Most Loved

Birthdays are great.

Someone made me a cake.

A non-bake chocolate cream cheese.

With Oreos and Cadbury base.

Topped with Kit Kat.

That was(is) so so sweet, literally and otherwise.

Hahaha.

That someone was a person I often had arguments with.

I was the one who constantly attack him.

He's a great guy.

He doesn't hold grudges.

He's funny and all.

We had our conflicts, I was wrong.

Let's put it behind us.

Thanks for the cake.

The sweetest thing you can ever receive is a handmade cake.

*hugs*

XOXOXO

hahaha

I'm so easy sometimes.

My heart wavers too easily.

My friends took effort to stay till midnight to send me wishes.

While I was dozing off.

Taking a quick nap.

Setting my alarm to 11:50 pm.

I'm not a night person.

Unless there are great movies to watch.

I wanted to wait till midnight too.

To wait for wishes. 

hahaha just let me be a narcissist for a day.

I love long messages.

I love how people actually take their time to write them.

I love voice recordings.

So sentimental.

I love it.

Thanks.

I have great friends.

They are seriously the bomb.

I think I should participate more in class activities.

Because I know they love me.

I will try to love them more.

I am seriously too easy.

If you love me, I will totally love you back.

Unless it's serious one,

that I have to consider. hahaha

I felt loved, when priority was given to me for a day.

I felt loved, when mom and dad took me to dinner.

I felt loved, when we took family photos.

I felt loved, when my friend made me a cake.

I felt loved, when they ushered me into the room and surprised me.

I felt loved, when my they stayed up late to wish me a happy birthday.

I felt loved, with the long messages they wrote me.

I felt loved, when they sent me voice messages.

I felt loved, when they sent me video messages.

I felt loved, when they even took it to instagram.

I felt loved, when they gave me a box full of goodies.
I felt loved, with just a "Happy Birthday" song.

Most loved?

Their sincerity.

I can just feel them pouring all over me.

They asked me what I wanted, because it would be easier for them to get me something.
I told them I wanted a new bottle, since my tupperware is getting old.
The stars was actually inside the bottle.
Loved it. 

I'd hug everyone I love, all bunched together, with my own hands if they were long enough.

It's okay.

I can always do it one by one.

I will miss everyone around.
We will part ways someday.
Who knows,
but memories do last.
I hope they last long.
They will last long.

All for one and one for all.

Love, lots and lots.
C.

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So I wrote this in April, talk about unproductive. hahaha

Life Is Beautiful With The Quiet Place

I've spent countless nights in bed thinking about the lemons life threw at me. I've always worried about tomorrow, about what's going to happen next. I'd cringe at every regrettable behaviour I showed during the day. It's always a mess in my head and you can say that's life and everyone does that. Yes everyone does that. Everyone is trying to be strong because stress is inevitable and some people find ways to let go but some don't.

This was such a fortunate event for me. I was flipping through a magazine and I found this web project, trust me I've never felt this good in such a long time.

The Quiet Place Project is founded by Amitay Tweeto in 2011. It's sort of a Internet getaway for people who are feeling the blues. This project has four features: the quiet place, 90 seconds relaxation exercise, the thoughts room and the dawn room. 

So how does it work? It's basically video-like interface where you would hit the spacebar to go on to the next line. Lines of motivating sentences will come out and it tries to speak your mind while adding some tinge of humour to the serious chain of messages. It has also background music to calm your nerves and set the mood. Some of the background music are creepy though hahaha I turned off my speakers for some of it but overall it's great.

I wouldn't want to spoil anything so try out the quiet place and 90 seconds of relaxation exercise yourself. ;)

The thoughts room allows you to write your thoughts and vent your frustrations and every word you typed in will burst into stars. It's beautiful and to be honest it feels great to pour it all out and believe that the worries are all gone. 

The dawn room will allow you to write a motivating message to someone you love and that message will be sent to the users of the project. By sending doesn't mean it actually mails you and stuff, no, it actually features other messages people wrote and yours will be up there on others' page. It's really motivating but the BGM here is quite creepy. 

Now, apart from the creepy BGMs it was amazing. It was invigorating, energizing and you would definitely close a tab with a smile on your face. There's also something for people who wants to attempt suicide. There's always something for everyone. If not, look at the big picture. The scenarios don't matter, it's the message that's going to make you feel better. 

I think that this project is incredible. It's ingenious and who knows how many people this project has helped. I find that I don't have to worry so much now. There's nothing that cannot wait. Well, maybe exams hahahahaha because I don't want to go back to TQP after failing my exams. 

I'd like to share this to everyone out there, even the happiest man on earth. 

Cheers! XO, C.

#np: May's Playlist

Wow this took too long! It's exam month again and I have loads of books to go through. Gladly took some time off to cover this post, also thanks to some friends who recommended me new tunes because my playlist was growing old.

How You Love Me - 3LAU

听格 - 蔡健雅

We'll Be The Stars - Sabrina Carpenter

Prayer In C - Lilly Wood and the Prick ft. Robin Schulz

I'm Good - Elsie ft. K.Will

彩虹黑洞 - MP 魔幻力量 

Hooligans (Reimagined - Diamond Dreams) - Issues