Valentines 2014

Valentines Day isn't a day that people like me would anticipate. You know, single. So it'd be just another Friday for me.

And I think a lot of people will tell you off (if you're 16 like me.) that you're still young bla bla bla to even put an effort in caring about Valentines Day.

I think that we're old enough to love, but too young to understand it.

"We're to young and too dumb to care, love was a story that couldn't compare." 
Love it.

Nothing's perfect, I get that. Sometimes things don't go well and it's okay, it's fine, no big deal. But when love, when a relationship don't go well, it's over. Relationships are either good or bad, there's no middle ground. I'm not taking the risk any more, well at least at this age.

I like friends. I like being friends. I like being good friends and having them. I love them, I really do. I don't plan to go over the "friend line", not ever. I'm not crush material, I dislike awkward situations.

There's going to be a lot of confessions and flowers tomorrow.

Anyway, tell them you love them before it's too late. See a chance? Take it or leave it. No second guessing. That's the only two options in a relationship.

I feel like a philosopher. Haha *sweats*

Happy Valentines Day!

Fine China

I miss China. 

I miss the city lights. 

I miss the sickening cold autumn weather. 

I miss the accent and the crowds of chattering people. 

I miss the loose electric wires. 

I miss the old buildings. 

I miss the food. I miss the smell of the air. 

I miss the shopping districts. 

I miss the landscapes. 

I miss the windmills. 

I miss the sunrise. 

I miss the little alleys. 

I miss the western cafes. 

I miss the night market. 

I miss everything about China.

I used to hate it, especially the awfully cold weather. Now, I'm missing it. I actually love it, I long for it. Well maybe not the terrible cold weather.

Missing city lights, missing China. 

Missing Mr Past and what he used to be. 

CNY 2014

Happy Chinese New Year guys! Its been a long time since I posted something up here. I'm in a process of making a decision now. One I hope I wont regret.

CNY seems to have become a yearly routine. Especially chuyi (first day).

As usual on chuyi(first day), me and my family headed to my aunt's place for breakfast. We had longevity noodles, which is a tradition. Then we headed to my gramps' place to kick start the visiting process. Lastly, headed to my great grandma's place for lunch.
Nice day, nice people, peaceful, happy.

Outfit was a simple black and red. Didn't have the time and money to get clothes. It was last minute shopping for CNY clothes.

Went visiting with friends on chusi(fourth day). Visiting friends on chusi has seem to become a ritual as we do this every year. 

Old faces, new relations. Amazing people.


CNY wasn't that grand compared to the past few years. I guess things changed. I'm adapting myself to the changes around me. Back to the hectic school life, it's okay I guess. Its a form of getaway for me. I'm lucky to have amazing friends around me.

Happy Chinese New Year once again! Stay healthy. :)

Where is the me in me?

Losing yourself and the incapability to get a hold of yourself are two different things.

It's okay to lose yourself, once in a while. But its not okay if you can't get a hold of yourself.

To be unable to control how you conduct, how you carry yourself, how you present yourself to the world, it's pretty crappy. Especially when you only realized after you do something.

When your heart wants to give a good impression to the world and your brain interprets it the other way, and you start to sink deeper, losing control.

New year, new class, new faces. I wanted everybody to have a good impression of me and I screwed it.

Everything sucks, my personality sucks. People are going to think that I'm the loud rude girl that always budge in at anything. I'm exaggerating here.

Anyway, I updated my writing blog yesterday. "男人婆之恋". Check it out! :) stripmythoughts.blogspot.com

twenty14

I'm pleased to know the fact that school is re-opening this Thursday. Been feeling awfully sick this holiday. I lost my appetite, rarely take dinners and yet I don't feel an ounce of hungriness. All i've been doing is just dramas after dramas, shows after shows. 

Despite going back to wearing those long A-lined pinafores, wake up at 6 in the morning, carry a heavy load of books everyday to school, its so much better than staying at home everyday wondering what you're going to do today the minute you open your eyes every morning.

2014 is going to be tough. I planned on not going for tuition because I hate schedules. I hate it when the time and place are fixed. Especially going studying again. Then, i'm afraid I can't cope with the standards. Well whatever, I'll give it my best, because I have a goal and i'm going to beat that one person who stole my title. *evil laugh*

People think that i'm the type who studies well, and some people think that i'm the type who doesn't study. Well i'm both. :)

Second, i'm looking forward to the stresses. Looking forward to those mental breakdowns, those nights when I'll be brainstorming for a solution to my problems. You know, high school problems. ;) I kinda love it because it gives me a topic to write about on my writing blog. 

Third, all-time karaoke session in class. LOL

Fourth, i'm just glad I have to go through crap again. I'm so so glad. ;)

Happy New Year Guys!! 2014, lets go!!