Saturday, 25 April 2015

Say You Love Me

#tb to some random day of the year. I know it totally does not match the title of this post. *laughs*

Cause' I don't wanna fall in love,
If you don't wanna try,
But all that I've been thinking of,
Is maybe that you're mine.
- Jessie Ware


My friend whom I haven't spoken to for a long time asked me,
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
"No." *laughs*
"Don't you feel like having one?"
"Uhmm...yeah...but it's not like I can get one when I want one." "I'm just waiting." *laughs*


For people like her, it's effortless. With a snap, voila.
But that is a different story.


In my opinion, people can change drastically when they take on different roles in your life.
Like they're like this when they're being a friend and they completely change when they become your partner.
Hence it is some sort of a risk to date and such. But it's a very beautiful risk, I must admit.


I think the keys to a good relationship is: the exact distance, toleration and patience.
I think of being in a relationship as living as one with two personalities. 
To nourish the good, to change the unhealthy, and to accept the unchangeable.


I hate possessive relationships, because I was in one and it was hell.


Distance and the right space will help a relationship breathe,
as long as hearts stick together.


I told her I am just waiting.
I am still really young.
I am not mature enough to imagine a realistic relationship yet.
It's either very fairy-tale-like or otherwise very void. 
One thing I know,
Is to strive for the best for myself,
then good things will come along.


Never live to find the one,
Live a good life and then love will be one of the things that come along.


I just finished Tiny Times 1 & 2.
Drama.
But it's so beautifully intense.
Boyfriends cheating, friends backstabbing.

我相信,这个世界上一定会有一个你爱的人。他会穿越这个世界汹涌的人群,一一地走过他们怀着一颗用力跳动的心脏,捧着满腔的热和沉甸甸的爱,走向你,抓紧你,他一定会找到你的,你要等。

也许我们最终都会成长为自己曾经最讨厌的摸样。但在此之前,面对黑暗无边,让我与你并肩。

There are so many beautiful quotes and sayings in the movie.
I cannot tahan.
Dem feelings~~
  

陈学冬
He is damn hot. 
 I heard Kris is rumoured to star in the 4th instalment of the series.
He better be.
Hahahahaha


May is here. I still can't get used to how fast time flies.
I think no one can ever get used to it.
Half of the year is almost gone.
I discussed with mom the other day.
About studying abroad.
I want to study in New Zealand.
That place is gorgeous and it gives a great vibe for students.
I don't know if I can go there.
Well we shall see.


It's been a long rant.
No regrets, 
Live, don't just exist, 
C.


Thursday, 16 April 2015

Some April Rants


I just finished a movie called 有一个地方只有我们知道 (Somewhere Only We Know)

Kris is in it and HE IS HOT, PERIOD.

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I feel like everyone is so productive lately except me who really has nothing to do except studying. Got to step up my game, exams lining up like crazy. One year 7 months left and I am free from high school. I don't know what to pursue in the future, sigh, do well in exams and then we shall see.

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I am depressed. I've been trying to lose weight since the beginning of Nov 2014 and everything has gone well until one day I suddenly lost my motivation. It's like suddenly everything is so void and I keep running but I see no finish line. They say weight loss is an endless cycle, I guess that's true. 

I love my food and everyday is a constant battle between a freedom of choice and calorie restrictions and it's so depressing. "Love your body" I know. I know. But being skinny makes me happy and I like being happy. But eating makes me happy...temporarily. I can't think straight sometimes, and I splurge and ruin everything and I feel super guilty and depressed and it's a very ugly process. 

I know I have to be strong, mentally. I am trying and I know I can because I've been there and I know consistency is the key. Progress will lead to success. I will fight my inner demons and I will succeed in what I wish for. Well maybe what I wish for isn't going to make me happy in the end but it's worth the try. It's about challenging myself and knowing my limits and know that I have none. 

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I am strong, I am a warrior ninja. ;)
C.

Sunday, 5 April 2015

#np: April's Playlist



Yay birthday month! Turning 17 this year. No more sweet 16 (aint that sweet tbh)

Girls - The 1975


Honest - Kodaline


Leave the Night On - Sam Hunt


High - Peking Duk ft. Nicole Millar


Revolution - Diplo


Younger - Seinabo Sey (Kygo Remix)


Maybe Tonight - The Summer Set



Sometimes - Crush



I like all the EDMs in here. Absolutely love High. Sometimes and Maybe Tonight are really good too. 

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Been a really rough week for the family. So glad that things are going back on track. Now I'm just hoping for more good days to come. 

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. 

xo, C.