Where is the me in me?

Losing yourself and the incapability to get a hold of yourself are two different things.

It's okay to lose yourself, once in a while. But its not okay if you can't get a hold of yourself.

To be unable to control how you conduct, how you carry yourself, how you present yourself to the world, it's pretty crappy. Especially when you only realized after you do something.

When your heart wants to give a good impression to the world and your brain interprets it the other way, and you start to sink deeper, losing control.

New year, new class, new faces. I wanted everybody to have a good impression of me and I screwed it.

Everything sucks, my personality sucks. People are going to think that I'm the loud rude girl that always budge in at anything. I'm exaggerating here.

Anyway, I updated my writing blog yesterday. "男人婆之恋". Check it out! :) stripmythoughts.blogspot.com

twenty14

I'm pleased to know the fact that school is re-opening this Thursday. Been feeling awfully sick this holiday. I lost my appetite, rarely take dinners and yet I don't feel an ounce of hungriness. All i've been doing is just dramas after dramas, shows after shows. 

Despite going back to wearing those long A-lined pinafores, wake up at 6 in the morning, carry a heavy load of books everyday to school, its so much better than staying at home everyday wondering what you're going to do today the minute you open your eyes every morning.

2014 is going to be tough. I planned on not going for tuition because I hate schedules. I hate it when the time and place are fixed. Especially going studying again. Then, i'm afraid I can't cope with the standards. Well whatever, I'll give it my best, because I have a goal and i'm going to beat that one person who stole my title. *evil laugh*

People think that i'm the type who studies well, and some people think that i'm the type who doesn't study. Well i'm both. :)

Second, i'm looking forward to the stresses. Looking forward to those mental breakdowns, those nights when I'll be brainstorming for a solution to my problems. You know, high school problems. ;) I kinda love it because it gives me a topic to write about on my writing blog. 

Third, all-time karaoke session in class. LOL

Fourth, i'm just glad I have to go through crap again. I'm so so glad. ;)

Happy New Year Guys!! 2014, lets go!!